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i’m really glad that you’ve found someone that makes you happy. maybe someday...

Mon, 13 May 2013 19:20:08 -0400

i’m really glad that you’ve found someone that makes you happy.

maybe someday we’ll be able to be friends, and if we aren’t, i hope you know that i always meant everything i said.

i’ve always loved you, it was always you.

all of the stupid decisions and fucked up things i’ve said/done, i am so sorry for them. i’m sorry for hurting you or ruining your trust in me.

i hope you have someone that treats you better than i ever could.

and i know you will, i’ve always known you’d find someone better than me eventually, and that’s okay.

i just want you to be happy regardless.

and regardless of whether i ever get over you or not, please know that you were always the one.

i hope she’s good to you, whoever she is.

don’t settle for anything less than you deserve.

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Sun, 05 May 2013 20:49:41 -0400

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Sun, 05 May 2013 20:49:32 -0400

cyberunfamous: -poetic: A poem for Ryan by Amanda Katherine...

Sun, 05 May 2013 20:49:15 -0400

cyberunfamous:

-poetic:

A poem for Ryan by Amanda Katherine Ricketson

almost 1k notes already wow

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Sun, 05 May 2013 20:49:03 -0400

nasai: you were

Sun, 05 May 2013 20:48:49 -0400

nasai:

you were

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Sun, 05 May 2013 20:48:40 -0400

so this is it we’re done. no longer together. broken up, for good. you deleted that blog you...

Thu, 25 Apr 2013 22:39:37 -0400

so this is it

we’re done. no longer together. broken up, for good. you deleted that blog you made me, you want me to send your stuff back. you like/d someone else. we’re over. and it’s not just you, i know. i like someone too.

i guess it’s just weird, you know? the way things turned out. i know you won’t believe this, and that’s okay, but i need you to remember one thing for me okay?

i love you. god, i really do. i wouldn’t be like this if i didn’t. i know right now, it seems like i don’t. you probably hate me, and that’s fine. i understand. just know that i know that the decisions i’ve made recently aren’t always right. i’ve been upset and hurt and i’ve coped with things a completely different way than i ever have, because i’m never been like this before. i’ve been completely blocking things out and distracting myself and doing everything i can just because i know that once i sit and think about everything, i’m going to break.

but that’s okay, i know it’s okay. i need to just stop with this shit i’m doing and just let myself. but the thing is, once i start to let myself hurt, i can’t stop it.

i don’t expect you to understand, or to feel any differently after reading this. by all means, i understand you hating me. just please never forget that i do love you.

i constantly think of you, i constantly check up on you to see if you’re okay. i talk about you all of the time. i do love you, i do. you’ve become such a huge part of my life, that now it’s like i feel as if i have to start all over because you’re not in the place you’ve been in for so long.

i don’t want to give back your stuff. i still use that blanket, i wore your shirt today, i sleep with the stuff you give me. i wear that ring.

if you want everything back, i’ll send it back. but please know that it’ll take everything i have to pack it up, drive to the post office, and send it to you. i will hate myself entirely after i do it.

i guess i shouldn’t ramble, eh?

the point is, please never forget that i love you. never forget me, okay? i will always cherish every moment i’ve spent involving you. i do not regret any of my firsts, and i won’t ever wish i hadn’t fallen in love with you. please don’t make careless decisions because you’re hurting. please don’t punish yourself, or anyone else because i have hurt you. if anything, hurt me. please. hurt me instead of yourself. i know it doesn’t seem like i care but the thing is, i care so fucking much. i know you don’t see that right now, and i get that. just don’t do anything you can’t take back. okay? i love you, please call or text me if you ever need me or miss me or want to talk.

you have no idea how much i want to be able to hear your voice or see you.

i love you. be safe.

i’m so sorry

i feel as if i’ll always be in love with you.

Thu, 18 Apr 2013 18:56:52 -0400

i feel as if i’ll always be in love with you.

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Mon, 15 Apr 2013 00:04:27 -0400

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Mon, 15 Apr 2013 00:03:01 -0400

today would’ve been our one year. and though things aren’t how i wish they were, and we...

Tue, 09 Apr 2013 21:18:37 -0400

today would’ve been our one year.

and though things aren’t how i wish they were, and we don’t love each other in the way that we did, i really do love you and want the best for you.

you deserve nothing but happiness.

i feel like we forgot how to love each other.

Mon, 08 Apr 2013 18:09:39 -0400

i feel like we forgot how to love each other.

Uncertainty

Mon, 08 Apr 2013 18:08:21 -0400

Uncertainty

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Mon, 08 Apr 2013 18:07:31 -0400

i don’t understand why you’re so upset with me. i stayed at a guy’s house,...

Sun, 07 Apr 2013 22:29:16 -0400

i don’t understand why you’re so upset with me.

i stayed at a guy’s house, okay.

we aren’t dating, it’s not like i’m in love with the guy either.

yet you’re being so rude and not talking to me.

here’s what’s going to happen; you’re going to continue to guilt me constantly...

Thu, 04 Apr 2013 22:08:14 -0400

here’s what’s going to happen;

you’re going to continue to guilt me constantly about this day after fucking day and make me hate myself more than i thought was possible,

and i’m going to eventually push you away.

if that’s what you want to happen, then continue to do what you’re doing; otherwise maybe you should really think about the things you’re saying to me and how they affect me. i already feel shitty enough about myself and this, and you continue to bring it up and say “i just can’t believe we aren’t together” “i don’t understand why you wouldn’t tell me blahblah” and it’s really just starting to piss me the fuck off.

i get it, okay? i understand that i hurt you and i am a terrible fucking person. you’ve made it clear, just as your little friend did. i don’t know what you suspect me to do, i’ve apologized over and over again, i’ve tried explaining myself and talking about it.

but you continue to go on and on about it knowing what it does to me.

do you want me to hate myself?

ugh, okay. i really don’t want to make this post and what i’m about to say will probably...

Wed, 03 Apr 2013 22:38:38 -0400

ugh, okay. i really don’t want to make this post and what i’m about to say will probably make me sound like the biggest bitch in the world and i’m sorry if it does.

i cannot deal with this. i love you and i know you’re upset, but i cannot deal with the guilt you cause me to feel. i feel so fucking shitty and whenever i know you’re crying or upset, it honestly just makes me want to jump off a fucking cliff. it’s driving me crazy. i don’t know how to handle this, i can’t. i love you and want you to be happy but it’ll kill me trying to do it.

i try to be everything i can for you and i know you don’t try to make me feel guilty but you do so much and your emotions are dragging me down.

i don’t nkow how to handle you right now

i’ll be completely fine then i’ll see a fucking picture of you and just start bawling...

Wed, 03 Apr 2013 21:07:32 -0400

i’ll be completely fine

then i’ll see a fucking picture of you and just start bawling because i miss you

and everything just comes crashing down

lovelysenses: want more love/life quotes like this?

Wed, 03 Apr 2013 00:31:13 -0400

lovelysenses:

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